Small Red Dot

About relationship

2011-07-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today, in the mist of all the workload, a friend of mine told me that he dun understand why his girlfriend's friends are asking her to break up with him.

In the first place, I was very surprised that they would eventually get together. No doubt I am happy from them, but they have hardly been together for 2 months and they are having problems oready. If this issue is not handled properly, the result may be bad!

Honestly, I never had a good impression of this guy but somehow, now, I don't think that I have the ability to judge people well. I have learnt from him that even if I don't have a good impression about someone, I should not make conclusions about someone based on impression, that is actually very CHILDISH!

So even I can't believe that I would end up trying to council him and make him feel better. I can't believe I can be mature and give him good advice.

But on the other hand, my other friend is trying to get into a relationship but I think I didn't handle that properly.

I guess at the age of 21,I am still trying to find my moral, values and direct of life. I need to be determine with whatever I believe is right. The route to success is always the toughest. The shortcut will never be the long term solution!!

So thats all I have today!! Got to get back to my work le!!! =.=

2011-07-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

What I hate most is the fact that I always put things off till the last min... and I will use the last min to reflect upon my actions and as a result... I always cant get things done!!! And the best part is I will also blame on others after everything to make myself feel better... and the cycle just goes on!!!!

BLA BLA BLA

2011-07-04T00:33:00.004+08:00

I actually had no intentions to continue this blog, but somehow, I think something happened and I realise that there is no better place to pour my sorrows than here.

So yesterday, I learnt that he liked someone. I wasn't stalking him on FB or anything. It just showed up on the recent updates. So I was thinking "Ooo" but I thought that would be all. But then, today, I realised that no, I am not ok with knowing this fact. I felt like a fool who was like 'Should I stop my crush', when his heart was with some one else. What a fool right!!

Here I am thinking if things will work out between us, but he actually wasn't even concern about me at all.

I do know of a friend who happen to know who he liked, but I am so not going to ask her!! It will be too humiliating for me!!

How did I even end up in this shit!!

Maybe, I wasn't heartbroken because he liked someone else but I was upset about the fact that I was in a dilemma that should not have existed at all!!

I guess I am trying to hypnotize myself that I don't like him. But why do my heart still hurts.

Sidetrack, I am always so engross in myself that I neglected my friends. WHY!! Not sure... Haiz. That's all for now. I need to go heal my broken heart!! :(

I am SO PISSED!!!

2011-04-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

I think that my father is CRAZY!!! He is Insane!!! OMG!!!! He is a bastard!! WHAT THE F*** HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS!!! {Take a deep breath!!!} You must be wondering why I am so pissed!! So here's what happen... I was watching the Star Awards 2011. Or rather, my whole family is watching it. My father has this bad habit that he can't keep quiet when we are watching tv. So he keep giving his comments and I find it irritating. So I told he to keep quiet for like 3-4 times and then when he still keep giving comments, I can't take it any more, so I stared at him and tell him to be quiet... And all of a sudden, he flared up!! And raise his voice at me. So I stared at him in disbelieved!! And he started to shout at me!!! I am like 'WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!' The content of what he said or shouted was 'Why are you telling me to keep quiet! I have my rights! Who are you to tell me to shut up! If you were an outsider, I would punch you in the face! You get lost! Who do you think you are! (Hit me on my leg) GET LOST!' So I went to my room and I was thinking 'This is so unfair and weird!!' And after I went in to my room, he still continue to complain to my mother. He was so loud that I can hear him from my room and he was say like what he said before and he also added that he also shouted at this cleaner who accuse him of not peeing properly. And then he also involved my lap top by saying that he will throw it away if I used it till midnight tonight!!! What kind of nonsense is this!!!! Don't you think he totally over reacted? I though It was something very small!! Its like making a mountain out of a molehill!!!! I felt so angry and I have no way to vent my anger that I started to cry!!! Its not tears of sadness! its tears of anger!! What is more irritating is that I was the one who wanted to watch the show and they just came to watch cos they have nothing better to do. And now I can't watch the show just cos of his stupid temper!!! In conclusion, I feel that he need to go see a counsellor. I feel that he may have some psychological problems. I had that feeling for very long le!!! Haiz!!! Thanks to my laptop, I was able to write down what I feel immediately. And it helps me to calm down!! So that's all of this post... I am going to find videos on the Internet to entertain myself!!

HI!!!

2011-04-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

I am BACK for another post!!!! Actually I dun know what to talk about today... Its 12.30 now... I just ended ballet at around 10pm... Maybe I can talk about the ballet lesson. My teacher told me that I improved!!! But at a very slow pace. Haiz!! I think I really have to put my exercise plan into actions!!!! So I have about a week of holidays left before I start school. I think I should take this time to meet up with my friends!! Hehe!!! Thats about it for today. Not in the mood to blog!!! Bye!!!!

SAD

2011-03-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

I am SO UPSET!!!!!!!!!! I really don't think that I am in the wrong. I admit that I am facing my laptop more often now. (Ps. I haven touched my desktop ever since I got my laptop.) It has always been a habit for me to use comp during my holidays. I just used more of my laptop now that it has got faster speed!!! It's a well known fact (at least to me) that I hate to read the newspaper, I am not interested in the latest news! I am only interested in watching dramas, movies and videos. I do know that I should make good use of my lappy and read up on the latest news but I really dun feel like!! Well even if i did read up on the latest news, I will not be bothered to tell you!!! I hate the fact that they always flare up when I use comp/lappy, just because they had a preformed impression that I used the lappy to play and not doing 'beneficial' stuff!!!! Another issue is that my mom wants me to find a part-time job. It's not that I don't want to find a job, it's just that all the online application requires resume and I have yet to get me resume done. And I do not want to let my mom know about the resume because that would mean that i will get another round of nagging!! Plus most of the jobs I saw requires a commitment of minimum 3 months but sch starts in less then 1 month time. So I have the fear to apply for those jobs. Furthermore, there is the consideration of my ballet classes!!! I don't wish that the job will affect my ballet lessons. I must say that I am getting lazier lately but I will have to keep pushing myself to go for the lessons. WHY? This is because, I might want to take the ballet exams this year. I need to stop wasting my ballet fees and try to get a decent cert. After typing this post, my anger towards my parents are gone. Or maybe not that strong. WOW!! Ooo, btw, another point that my mom brought up is my sleeping habits. I have been sleeping at 1 plus 2am these few weeks and I know that I need to change. But whats irritating is that I am trying to change without her nagging but the more she nags, the more I am irritated. For example, 30mins ago, I wanted to talk to her about this awesome dress I saw youtube, then she started her nagging. Then both of us, or maybe, I got irritated and we have this small quarrel, and I decided to blog to vent my anger!! So if she didn't start her nagging, we would have a nice conversation and after 10 mins or so, I would go to sleep. See the difference, I am still typing NOW!!! Haiz!!!! Something that was really hurtful!!! 要不是因为你没有工作，你早就会搬离这个家，自己生活，和这个家没有联系了。 Maybe it wasn't hurtful. because I totally agree with it when she said it. But as I was typing, I start to feel that my mom may be fearful that one day, I will leave her and do not contact her. After all I was the only child!!! Now I feel bad that I lost my temper!!!! Maybe I was really wrong. Maybe I should have given her more assurance. No more Maybes!!!! Got to go sleep and try to get back to a normal and regular sleeping habit. One final note, I think that when I read this post tml, I will think that it doesn't make sense, but who cares!!!! BYE FOR NOW!!!! SLEEP TIME!!!!!

WOW!!!!

2011-03-24T14:34:00.003+08:00

Hi!!!!!!!

Its now march of 2011!!! I just left my blog to rot!!!! I am so Sorry. I just wasn't in the mood to blog... So today, I am going to take a few mins to update my blog!!!!

So first things first, I got a new laptop earlier this month and I have been playing with it!!

Next, I got my results, I did not do badly this time round but there was no visible improvement!!!!

Now is my holidays and I am rotting at hm!!!

Lastly!!!! I just learnt about an incident that happen to my friend and there's nothing I can do for her!!!! I hope that she will be doing fine and get back up on her feet and go back to her studies soon!!!! In the mean time, all I can do is to give her moral support!!!! P.s. Arini if you see this, this is my way of showing my encouragement to you!!!!!

And after I learnt about this incident from my friend, it makes me understand how lucky I am. Although I have parents that keep nagging at me, I know that no matter what happen, they will never allow me to for any reason defer my studies because that know the importance of that piece of paper!!!! I think its time I mature and do my best to get that paper!!! For my parents and more importantly... ... For me!!!!! Way to go!!!! Thats all for now... ...

2010-12-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

HIHI!!!!

Its exactly 1 month from my last post!!!! Why haven I updated my blog? I think its because, i am too lazy to update. Or was I too busy??

I think its a little of both. This is the 2nd week and final week of my term break. This week, I have plans to go out everyday. I think this is a great way to end 2010 isn't it? LOL...

Last Sunday, i went to farrer park area to help Ms Annette to do some stuff. I got ZY and Bala to go with me to help out. It was very tiring but fun!!! On our way home, ZY asked if I still liked him........ I didn't know how to reply...... because, I am also not sure of the answer. Maybe in the eyes of other people, it appears that I still liked him because I did a lot of things for him in school. But I feel that it may have became a habit of mine to be mindful of him and offer help to him when I think he needs some help. Its possible that I treated him like a friend but i did not realized it. Or, this is just a thought that I used to comfort myself so that i do not have to keep thinking about the issue over and over again. And it worked! I think........

Enough of that. I am going to sleep now. Will write more when i feel like it.

2010-11-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

HAIZ!!!! Another week has passed!!!
I totally slacked on the weekends!!!
I think that i must be because I overdo things during the week, maybe i was too concern about those relationship stuff, or maybe because i have been going to my friend's house to 'study' and return home only at 10pm plus...
I am not sure why, but i just want to let loose.
But during the process of relaxing, I feel guilty!!!
Because I have so many stuff to do!!! @.@
OK!!! so now is the begining of the new week!!! time to buck up and fight!!! FIGHTING!!!!
ALL THE BEST TO ME!!!!

Will be back soon!!!!

我太在意你们了吧。。。
我不要再想了。。。
我跟你好像又回到了最开始了吧。。。
只是我变了。。。
你呢？？？
现在的我变的很在意你的一切。。。
可是又要刻意的伪装自己。。。

害怕不能和你做朋友。。。
所以伪装自己。。。

我还是把读书放在第一位吧。。。
这是不想你的最好方法。。。

我也不会在刻意接近你了。。。
但也不会刻意避开你了。。。
就这样吧。。。
感情是两个人的事。。。
我一个人一直想也没用。。。

bye!!

2010-11-23T11:54:00.002+08:00

today, i dun have sch, so i will just take sometime to blog.
Actually, i woke up at 11am today... hehe... But I slept at 2.30pm yesterday. so i think its ok le. hehe...
i wanted to study the past few days... but i cant!!!! so i am hoping that i can do it today. I am going to make a schedule and try to follow it.

Then on Sunday, i meet up with my emotional intelligence coach and friends to discuss some problems and i have a lot of insight from there. But i will not elaborate here!!

i will not do the chinese blog today. Cos i want to go eat lunch and study le... bye...

2010-11-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

omg!!! just finish my assignment that is due today. hehe... i should not procrastinate anymore!!! i keep doing that and one day, i will die!!!
tml is sat!!! but i can't slack!! i need to study for my test next week!!! must make sure i really study!!! ok. tml i will blog and tell you if i did study... if i did... i am going to reward myself something... but i dun noe what yet.... this is to motivate myself to work hard!!! i really hope it works!!!! so i think if i did study, i will watch a movie tml night.. hehe... sounds good rite.. haha... okok... i think i better go sleep now so that i can wake up early tml to study... haha..

now chinese...

你的声音。。。我想聆听。。。
你的字迹。。。我想收藏。。。
你的笑声。。。我想感受。。。
你的一切。。。我想关注。。。
可是在你身边的不是我。。。
你和身边的她总是在我周围。。。
看到你们的互动。。。
我觉得很不是滋味。。。

当心不再痛。。。
喜欢也就不再存在。。。

我在等心不再痛的那一天。。。
那一天。。。
我不再喜欢你的那一天。。。

我们为什么会变成这样。。。
是我在疏远你。。。
还是你在避开我。。。

ok stop here le!!! bye!!

OMG

2010-11-18T22:32:00.003+08:00

ok...

Today, i dun intend to blog, cos i am tired and i have lots of work to do... but something 'forced' me to blog.

Today, my lesson end at 8pm. then i took a bus hm. then i was walking beside the main road and i was just looking forward when i suddenly saw a pair of legs with pants half down behind some bushes. at first i was like ooh no!!! someone is peeing there. but then, i saw a hand moving at the 'penis' i think. then i was like OH NO!!!!! there is a pervert wanking behind the bushes!!!! then i faster walk away!!! omg!!! horrible encounter!!!

ok!!! feel better now that i post it up!!! i was so disgusted that i sms my best friend and some classmates to tell them abt it!!! OMG!!!!

ok!!! back to my hw!!!

now the chinese stuff...

我像透明人吗。。。

还是我在你眼里一点地位都没有。。。

不跟我说话是因为。。。

你没话说。。。

还是因为你看到我会紧张到不知道要说什么？

我希望是后者。。。

但是我的直觉告诉我是前者。。。

和她在一起。。。

是因为方便。。。

还是喜欢？。。。

我希望是前者。。。

但是我的直觉告诉我是后者。。。

好了。。。

废话就到这里。。。

告辞！！

... challenge...

2010-11-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

ok.. so i am back again!!! 4 weeks had passed since sch start!!! and quizes are coming to say hi!!! so i need to start mugging le!!! cos this semester, i got like 3 modules that are non-examinable!!! so every single quiz and test is impt!!!

so the title says challenge.. so .. wats the challenge?
I am going to try typing my blog in chinese!!! hehe!!

今天放假，我在家发霉。
好久没和好朋友见面了。
我好想念你们！！
我觉得大家都好用功喔！
只有我还在玩！
可是读书好烦喔！

我的心。。。
麻木了。。。
没有爱。。。
没有恨。。。
没有情。。。

到底喜欢是什么？
为什么我有时会觉得我喜欢他。。。
有时又觉得我不喜欢他？

这是为情所困吗？
哈哈。。。
我还真爱胡思乱想！！

好了。。。
不聊了。。。我要去睡觉了！！

ps. sorry for those who dun understand chinese... its just so random stuff... i will still post in english... but i want to try out chinese blogging. hehe....

have fun everybody!!!!
see u soon!!!
Cant wait for my friends to come back from overseas....
and also cant wait to meet up with friends wo are still in singapore...

why am i still talking????

BYE BYE... Good night!!!

2010-10-25T13:11:00.002+08:00

Haiz!!!! Today is the first day of the new sem!!! I have lessons at 6pm!!! Its a 1hr lec and then i will be home!!! I really dun like to go sch!! And now i have to work very hard not to push up my GPA cos ITS IMPOSSIBLE!! But i need to work hard to prevent my GPA from dropping AGAIN!! So... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... In short, I NEED TO WORK HARD!!!

Now i am resting at home. I will leave my house at about 4pm to go sch to print my lec notes!!!

So I am going to watch Videos le!!! BYE!!!

2010-10-18T11:37:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!! SCHOOL'S GOING TO START AGAIN!!!! SOB..... @.@

Result!!

2010-09-26T14:57:00.002+08:00

I got my results for the sem le!!!! it sucks!!!!! my GPA is now 3.33!!!!
I really feel like dying!!!!
But who can i blame other then myself!
I got so much to say but dunno how to!!!
I will just leave it at this!!!
Going to work super hard next sem!!!
Hope i am able to practice wat i preached!!

And Joc: Stop hiding ur feelings!!! if not u will fall sick!!! if u are upset or piss or anything u can just drop me an sms!!! Dun emo urself!!!

And Arini: i can't wait for u and Gai to come back!!!! hehe!!! Miss u all!!!!

study break!!!

2010-08-22T12:20:00.002+08:00

i am having study break now. its 1 whole month cos of YOG!! 2 weeks have passed and i only have 2 weeks left!!!! but i have zero mood to study!!!! yesterday, i watched step up 3D!!! then next week i have plans to go out on tue, wed, thur!!! i am so going to die if i dun start studying now!!! 5 subjects and less than 2 weeks!! how am i going to survive!!! plus!!! my parents are pissing me off, but at the same time, i think i am pissing them off too!!! haiz!!!

haiz!!!!

2010-07-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

Today I am not suppose to be blogging cos i got 2 test to prepare for!!!

But i really have to post cos i am pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can u always assume that i am playing when you see me at the computer!!!!! FUCK!!!!!! (sorry for the word!!! like i said, i am pissed!!!)

Then is like i am trying to study hard!!! i plan to study hard for the rest of this week cos i spent the last 2 days playing till like 11pm then reach hm!!!

Then today u want to come and say "lets talk about wat happen to u recently!!!!"

Then i went crazy and shouted at my mother!!! then u say "" every time i want to talk to u, u will da xiao sheng!!!"

But the fact is i know u will start nagging and i know that if i listen to it i will not have the mood to study ma!!!!!!!

Then like What every she say is not going to true cos she will say i keep playing din study and stuff Like that!!!

Then like today morning I was like pissed by the irritating AIMM project!!!! Then is like I emo the whole time at sch lor!!!! Haiz!!!!

Wat an irritating day!!!! Then like ppl take forever to reply my sms!!!! WHY!!!! Why are all the bad things happening today!!!! And tml is going to be a very bad day for me too!!!!!!

OMG….. can I just go and die!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAIZ!!!! Its seems that I am emoing again!!!! Ignore me!!!!

updates!!!

2010-07-21T11:32:00.002+08:00

Today is the 21/07/10.
It should have been about a month since my last post!!!!
I dun really noe how to start.
So in the past 1 month I met up with Seng Yong(Sy) and Joc.
We (me and joc) haven't met Sy for about a year oready!!!!
So the 3 of us had dinner and chatted till about 11 plus at night. the best thing is i have sch at 9 the next day!!! but the whole outing thing was great!!!
Then i also went for a swim at bedok swimming complex recently with poly friends!!! But we only went once!!! hehe!!!! that was fun too.

Then like the rest are basically the same, STUDY & STUDY & PROJECT & TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!

And.................... Lots of nagging frm parents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I noe u all care about me but cant u all just give me a break!!!!
I noe the importance of doing well in poly!!!
I am trying to adjust my mindset and strive of the best!!!!
Its not as if I dunnoe the importance of this diploma!!!!
I am already very stress with all the deadlines and test and i really dun need u all to add to the stress!!!!
What i hate most is when u all say that u are not trying to pressurize me but just trying to motivate me!!!
Because the fact is the moment u all mention that this is my last chance, if i dun do well, I will not be able to go uni and i will have to work................. this sentence itself is giving me stress!!!
And like i am the only child so I know that all u hope is on me!!!! This also makes me very stress!!!!
But no matter how i try to tell u all... we end up shouting at each other!!!! Haiz!!!!
Funny thing is they dun read my blog... so they will still not noe how i feel!!!
So i guess the only solution is to ignore them and focus on my studies..... hoping that if they see me being so hardworking, they will strat to understand me and stop nagging!!!!

Then about my crush.....
i am think of giving up. But the more i think about giving up... the more i can't do it...
haiz... I think i will just take a step at a time and stop thinking abt that!!!1

Time to go for lesson le!!!!! bye!!!! (I was typing this in the sch comp lab!!! hehe!!)

2010-06-22T12:31:00.002+08:00

hey guys!!!!! i am so lazy to update my blog. hehe. so sorry guys.
ok so here is a very short summary of wat happen to me in the past 2 months or so.
i had my term test, then term break for one week and i am back to sch to start the new term yesterday.
Other people have got a 2 weeks break but i only have 1 week. why? because i went for Pre-u sem.

so how was pre-u sem? honestly, i am not sure. why? cos i just play and have fun and i din really pay attention during the panel discussion or the parallel presentation. The friends i made there were great!! The food there is ok. Some of the hostel is haunted, and that's sooooo not good!!

Anyway this is just a brief discription of Pre-u sem. i might do a detailed one when i feel like it. maybe i will not do it. Oh well, i will see how lor!!!

Then my pre-u sem grp have an outing of 8 ppl (out of a total of 20) we went to new york new york to have dinner after which we went to the esplanade rooftop to have fun!!! this happened on friday(18 june 2010). Then i reached home at 12midnight that day!!! hehe!!!

Then the next day i went out with Jocelyn to plaza Sing to have lunch and catch the karate kid!!! hehe!!!! Jocelyn treated me lunch as my birthday present!!! So sweet of her!!!! hehe!!!! The karate kid was awesome!!!!! there were parts that moved mr to tears!!! and other parts that was so hilarious!!! hehe!!!! overall its an awesome movie!!!! This was on the 19 june 2010.

And today is 22 june 2010. and i am typing this post at 12 plus noon(Singapore time la)(hehe. this is for Arini!!! hehe)!!! and i dun have lesson to day becos the only lesson i had was a 2hrs lect and the lecturer is on Sick leave!!!! hehe!!!! i guess this is a relatively great update!!! dun u think so!!!!! hehe!!! okok. i am going off le!!!!

dunnoe when we will meet but................... see how lor!!!!!!! hehehehehehehehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

About FRIDAY!!!

2010-05-10T21:07:00.003+08:00

I sleep late on Friday but i woke up early to go do physiotherapy.

The doctor say that its my last session le! Then, I am like so happy!

Then after the physiotherapy, I went out with Renay, Polly, Ming Xue, Fabian, Guo Guang & Zheng Yee(only joined the singing session). Cos its TP's 20th anniversary then we dun feel like going sch!! HEHE!!

So we went to eat lunch at some Korean shop at Suntec City, then I wore my very high platform shoes, and i almost fell on the steps on Suntec !!! So embarrassing!!

Then after we eat we walk around Suntec City for a while then Polly bought alot of make up, Renay bought an eyeshadow and I bought a mascara. hehe...

Then the girls walked to place that is similar to K-Box but not K-Box. The 2 guys din join us. So the most memorable and funny part is we were walking down the overhead bridge. then I fell!!!!!!!!!!!! And the way i fall was very hilarious!! We were all laughing!!! Then I laugh till i teared!!! hehe... the fall is not painful!!!! but very hilarious!!!

So we went to sing!!!!

However, i very bad at singing but i still singing. hehe... cos its my friends ma. they will not laugh at me. hehe...

So basically its very fun lor!!! lol...

thats all about Friday!!! hehe... ( abit upset that he din join but well just let nature takes its course)

so today went to back to sch!!! had a quiz that i will sure fail. Then after sch went to Simei to take my HP!!! YAY!!! Then i also went to get those stickers with ur name on it. hehe...

So thats all for now!!! going to study le...

SHOUT OUT to JOCELYN: i noe u dun need to study le (cos its holiday)... jealous!!!! SOB!!!

lol...

late at night.

2010-05-07T02:48:00.003+08:00

WOW.... I am still awake!!!!! Ok..... Actually its my fault cos I keep procrastinating. And in the end I need to rush HW!! But I feel good now after finishing my hw!!!

This morning, I suddenly emo for a while and I thought abt things and I came out with this. Its random. I noe. but I just feel that way all of a sudden!! So this is it!!

Liking someone can be so tiring at times.

Reasons:

1. You need to pretend that you treat him like a normally like all your other friends when what you really want to do is to show him that you want to treat him differently.

2. You will always be wondering "Will he ever like me?"

3. You will always feel a tinge of jealousness if you see him on very close terms with other girls/ women/ lady.

4. You always feel hopeful when he suddenly appears to enjoy your company.

5.But your heart will drop into the deepest ans darkest pit id he suddenly distant himself from you.

6. In short, liking someone(having a crush) is like a Tug-of war between hope and despair!!

Dun you think this is tiring?????

To end off, I have a question for those reading this post.

Do you think you should confess to the guy that you like?

This is a very subjective question.

I personally feel that there will be 3 outcomes.

1. Both of you becomes a couple!! (best outcome)

2. Both of you remains as friends.

3. Both of you feel awkward when facing each other and lost contact. (worst outcome)

So anyway, I am looking forward to see your answers!!!!

Thats all.!!!

Going to sleep le.

Goodnight...

2010-05-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

Today i went to YJC to do rehearsal for my pre-u sem. the whole thing is really fun.. lol...

AND I WANT TO BUY A MACBOOK...

like seriously!!!! i want macbook!!!!!!!

MACBOOK!!!!!

Then in the evening we met the resources person for our Pre-u sem. We had a very thought provoking session and i think i was stuffed with lots of info....

hehe...

so thats all le!!!

finally back to blog.

2010-05-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

HIHI...

ok... erm... first up... i went to send my hp for repair!! AGAIN!!!!

Haiz.

Then sch work very tough!!!

Then today went online( like once in a long while. )

Then chat with Lots OF ppl...

WOW...

RECONNECTED WITH LOTS OF PPL!!! Thats like the best thing i did this week!!!

lol..

so thats all le...

see u soon!!!

HIHI

2010-04-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

just want to say hi so that u all out there noe that this blog is still in use. Its just that i am to lazy to update. hehe..

SORRY!!!!

2010-02-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

ok... u will be wondering sorry for wat rite...
actually its sorry cos i din update my blog for so long...
my last post was like on 20/01/10...
and today is 20/02/10...
so its exactly 1 month since i last blog...
i dun really know wat to update now, cos so much happened in the past month...
i guess the best thing that happened is chinese new year. and the worst thing is that i am going to have my exams is 2 days time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
erm... i guess thats all... o ya... i meet up with joc and yuan lin during the last week... and i feel so happy cos i get to keep in touch with my friends...
so i think thats all... so the past 1 month i am just in a depression state and sometimes i dun even know what i was doing just the previous day. so i cant really remember how the 1 month pass...
haiz... thats all le... going to mug le...

2010-01-20T23:39:00.001+08:00

today chat with Jocey!!!!! Am very motivated to study!!!!! Thanks!!!!

2010-01-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day!!!
ok,
Maybe not in the morning/afternoon period, i guess i simply have too much on my mind to be in a good mood, too much to process.
Lucky i have a chat with a friend during the last lecture and then i felt a great deal better. I guess i finally managed to straighten my thoughts le!!

Then the most coincident thing happened.
I decided to sms Jocey for fun. It so happened that both of us was on our way home and we are at bedok. Then all of a sudden, with no sms, no phone calls, we just saw each other!!! So we chatted. but not for long. Then we were trying to meet up on wed!!! hope tt will turn out well!!!

Thats all le... Then Sat went Biopolis it was fun.. then went to have EI coaching lessons with Mark.
Then between the Biopolis trip and the EI coaching lessons there was about 3 hours so me and the other student that also went for the Biopolis trip and have the EI coaching lessons walked around Esplanade, the Victoria theatre ( DES happened to have a performance there!! then i happened to see the posters outside the theatre and then losts of emotions came flooding into me!!! haiz. this is life. ) Then we chat and talked about lots of stuff. Then i formed a different impression for this friend. So i guess i should not have been so quick to judge a person!!

Then we had the coaching lesson in the Singapore Cricket Club. Its a very poised club and its like my first time to a place like tt!!!
So its like an eye opener for me. I learned a lot form the lesson but i should not talk about them here!! ok... thats all le!!!!!!!!!!

Bye for now!!!!!!!!!!!

Lots to Update!!!!!

2010-01-11T22:53:00.005+08:00

Hi there, I guess its time for updates again. Today, I am like super happy!!! Because, I finished my CSAS RP presentation! I was quite scared this morning before the presentation because I wasn’t well prepared. I was actually more concern about my looks and appearance rather that the content of my speech. I did some last min preparation, but I think it’s not enough. Furthermore, I also receive info that he won’t be coming to school again. This kind of like decrease my enthusiasm. Lucky, I managed to brace myself before the start of my speech. And did a not too bad job. The teacher said that I did a good job and was well prepared. But I kept looking at the screen. Lol. Then the shirt I wore was a men’s shirt and I kind of anticipated that ppl will say that I took his shirt to wear and.. ya… this guys really joked abt my shirt. But I was kind of happy!! Hehe… After lesson, there was a break and I went to play pool with my classmates again. This time round, I won 2 games out of 3. Lol… That really adds to my happiness. Then after lessons, I went to the audition of the LC play. It’s a play for the freshmen orientation. I thought it will be very scary, but it wasn’t, this is because there are very little ppl present and it was more of fun then serious audition. Lol..Then HOR… By the time I reach home, my feet hurts like hell can!! I think I really need lots of practice to walk on high heels!!!
So basically that’s how I spent today!!!
Then HOR… the past few days also have lots to update. So I will now move on to tt…
Ok.. So I will go in reverse order. So Sunday I went to make a new pair of specs. Lucky my degree didn’t increase!! Then before that I went to cut my hair cos it’s too thick and the fringe is to long, then I scared mon presentation dunnoe how to style my hair. The outcome of the new hair style was GREAT!! LOL.. U can go Facebook to see it!!
Then sat, went to school to do intro to psycho project. However, I mostly slack cos the work was very easy to complete!! Then went home and sleep… cos very tired…
Then Friday, I dun feel like wearing contact lens. So I wore my specs. Then before the first lesson of the day, it broke!!! Its like so wat the hell lor… then, I was like half blind the whole time I am in school lor!!
Thurs, was raining in the morning. Then I wore m slippers to school. Then I fell at the carpark under my blk. Its so omg la… then I injured my knee so I went back home to clean my wound. Then I got scolded by my dad. Then the best part was I wanted to go to sch after I dressed up my wound. Then my father thought I dun wan to go school so he told me to take cab to school. And he will pay for it. So I was like very happy la.. cos I will not be late for lect.. lol… then after that at around noon, Yuan Lin came to TP’s open house and I show her around. She was like so badly sun burnt that she is red from top to bottom!! Then we even share a Ben & Jerry’s Ice Cream and also buy a fullscape cos the cover very nice. Then Yuan Lin also bought a TP shirt for fun. Then after a while she left.. and I went back to my lessons.
Then hor!!! On 3 Jan!!! A friend who went overseas to study chatted with me on msn!!! Was kind of surprised and happy!!! Lol…
Then on the first day of the New Year, I help my dad to give my house a new look, by painting the walls… lol…
Ok… now the saddest part!!! On 31dec, went to send Gai3 off… its was very sad lor.. the other time I send Arini off with Gai3… then now I send Gai3 off with Arini… then in a few months time, I will have to send Arini off again. Haiz.. How can I not feel sad and lonely when out of the 4 of us, 2 will be Aus, 1 is always not available. Then, that’s leaves me alone… haiz.. On the way home, me and Arini was like trying to remember all the happy times we spent together. Haiz. All the wonderful memories that will stay as memories forever, how I wish we could stop time..
If I can ever stop time, I will want the time to stop at the time when I am a child so I dun have to have all this worries. However, I will not have met my primary school friends. Although I may not be in contact with them, but they had made pri sch enjoyable!!! So maybe I want to stop at pri sch. But then, I will not have met my BFF in sec sch… and other classmates… haiz. So maybe I want to stop time at sec sch. However, I will not meet my JC friends!!! Then if I stop time at my JC time, I will not meet him and my poly’s friends… HAIZ… So I guess this is life. You never know what will be waiting for you tml… so we should live life to its fullest and never fear tml!!!!!
I guess I should stop here le… this post is seriously too long!!!!!!!

2010-01-01T20:53:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 2010!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday wen to send gai3 off... then today also had some event... however, i am not in the mood to type it out... too pissed off le.. maybe i will type tml after i had calmed down...

first trial of pool!!!!

2009-12-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

today i went school of just one lab. Then I have intro to psycho grp project consultation with our tutor. The tutor said that we were on the right track and the first draft was good! we were all very happy!

Then i need to do some work as the class rep. Then i need to find my classmates. Then some of them were playing pool at one part of the school. Then i went there, explain so school work stuff to them. Then after i am done with the work portion, i was kind of curious about how to play pool since i din play it before. So my classmates taught me how to play. At first i felt very uncomfortable playing, but after a while, i got used to it and even managed to get one ball in to the hole!!! Towards the end, i even managed to get 3 balls into the holes consecutively!!!!!!!!!!! Woo Hoo!!!!!! Therefore i am like very very happy...

Then at late afternoon, i meet up with Arini to go shop for a gift of Gai3 who is leaving Singapore tml. (sob!!!!!)
In the end, we got a package that consist of a perfume and shower foam for her.
Then i bought 2 rings, some hair accessories and 3 bottle of nail polish for myself!! hehe...
spent a lot of money... but very happy...

Then now i very tired le...............................
So i am going to sleep le... bye!!!!
If i have time tml... i will do some reflection of 2009!!!! since its the last day of 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bye for now le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Depressed!!!

2009-12-28T20:20:00.004+08:00

today is the first day of a new term.
i am like a girl in dream land that is suddenly pulled back into reality.
i got back some of my test papers and the result sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun have a single A for heaven's sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then hw are left undone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so that basically explains why i am like soooo depressed!!!!!!!!!

thats all le....
i am going to start my 1000-2000 word hw!!!!!!!!!!!!! agrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

then hor... the worst part is hor... there is this lecture where the teacher wants to give out our test scripts then he ask the class rep to return to him the scripts of ppl not there cos he wan to know how many ppl is absent...
And hor!!!!!!
my class got the most ppl missing la!!!!
then i also feel very upset lor......
i mean the teacher told me that as a class rep i should set good example and encourage my classmates to attend lecture... haiz... i guess i failed as a class rep lor!!!
cos i think my class is not say united, the result not say good, the attendance is like shit.... and i believe and i know that i have a huge role to play in causing this problem!!!
so now i need to be good role model, pull up my grades , pull up the class's grade and still have fun as a class!!!!!!!!!!!

HAIZ....

2009-12-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

I thought i will just update my blog now... because i am free? lol... no... why would i be typing my blog now when i have school tml... simple... i have yet to finish my school work... haiz.. i really hate myself sometimes for being a procrastinator. if i dun stop this habit... i think i will not succeed in future... however, i tend to be able to think better and come out with better ideas if i do my work at the last min.

How ironic!

Christmas has passed. i guess most ppl have fun on that day... BUT not me!! i was kind of grounded and had to spend my day at home. Actually i had some fun because i painted my living room.. lol...

ok... another thing that i should mention is that i went out with Jocelyn and Yuan Lin on wed (23/12/09). We went to watch Avatar. i must admit that i wasn't too excited to watch that movie. Because for 1, i thought it was going to be some boring movie about gaming and war and stuff. But the movie turned out to be great!! i think i fell in love with the movie because of the beautiful creatures and the dream land kind of scenery of the Pandora planet. I was touched by how the Na'Vi(the ppl of Pandora) respect, take care and protect their Mother Nature. I remembered a quote from the movie

"look in to Grace's memory and you will see how our ppl has destroyed their Mother Nature and they are about to do the same to you!" lol... do i need to say more? every thing i want to say is expressed in that sentence.

okok... i guess i am abit ont myself to talk abt things like tt... better hurry off to do my work!!

fun!!!

2009-12-22T21:48:00.003+08:00

Today, i went to orchard with Arini, Gai3, Yuanlin, Joycelin, Sarah & Li Jie. we had lots of fun chatting and joking... then there is this particular joke that i think i will not forget for my whole life.. I believe that some of them will also share my feelings... lol... i really think is so funny that i will still laugh out loud when i think abt it!!!!!!!!!! And today... i took lots of pic that will be uploaded on facebook by my friends...

Then on the 18th dec... i went to my class bbq.. it was very fun lol... but I think the no of ppl that went was abit too little! :( anyway... it was fun to just go there and catch up with classmates!!!

OUT WITH BBF!!!

2009-12-17T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today i went out with Jocey after so long... hehe... we keep talking crap and have fun... hehe.... i think the only regret is that we din buy anything today... hehe...

Tml need to go sch to do project. then after that is 2S08 BBQ!!! lol... cant wait for it!!!
hehe...

WELCOME BACK......

2009-12-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

i am like finally back to update... lol...
what have i been busy with?
well, actually i am not that busy that i dun have time to blog. i think i am just too lazy to think and reflect. haiz.
Ok. I guess i have decided to do a long update.
so.... where should i start?
erm... maybe i will start from the more recent events.
Ok.
From this week onwards, i am having holiday for 2 weeks. But i think its not really going to be an enjoyable holiday as i have projects and HW to do. So today i went to school in an attempt to do one of my projects. However, it's not a successful attempt as we are like unsure of wat we really need to do for the project. The thinking process was fun. Therefore i guess its ok if we enjoy the process we can always make improvement to the project when we next meet up.

Then yesterday i went to school of the SLP(student leadership program) induction. We learn more about the frame work of SLP and listen to the experiences of our seniors. Then in the afternoon we played games. I think that i enjoyed to games the most. HEHE...

i guess the other things that happen i also cant really remember. So lets not talk abt it.. hehe... how i will be more hard working in updating my blog...
Cos i need a place to help me remember wat happened in my life.
Because i am a very forgetful person. i wan to have a place where i can look back to laugh abt those embarrass events and recall those happy time in my life!!

.....

2009-09-20T16:15:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i went to changi airport to study with jocey... it was quite productive!! i am so happy...
lol...

today stay at home... should be studying... but haven start... think will go study after i finish typing this... lol...

ok...
bye....
study time...

just another post...

2009-09-18T23:39:00.002+08:00

today i went dance... that is like the most interesting thing that i have done this week... can u believe it!!! omg... dance was really great today... cos we did pointe work... i simply love pointe work becos i think thats wat ballet is all abt... i will try to tahan the pain... becos i noe all this is worth it when u are able to step on the stage and dance gracefully on pointe!!

tml i am going to study with will jocey... hope tml will be more productive for me than last sat... and hope that i am able to motivate her to study instead of just joking with her and delay her progress... i will be back tml to tell u more abt my progress at the airport!!!

Ooo... and today i sms my teacher to ask him when the drp start and he told me it started oready!! omg... i missed the start of the drp... sob... but i told him tt i will join him next tue!! hope i can be more of a help than burden!!

Results....

2009-09-10T12:24:00.002+08:00

I am in the school lib typing this post....
The funny thing is i dun feel excited..
I mean....
I just checked my results...
But i dun feel disappointed or excited...
I also dunnoe why...
Anyway... here are my results...
Biochemistry 1 : Distinction
Organic Chemistry 1 : A
Principles of Inorganic and Physical Chemistry 1 : Distinction
Communication Skills for Applied Science 1 : A
Mathematics and Statistics 1 : Distinction
Human Anatomy and Physiology : B+
GPA : 3.9
Is this result good?
I dun think so lor...
Anyway...
I still need to work harder...
Jia you!!!

blogging again...

2009-09-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today, i went for dance...
It was tiring but fun...
I guess this is how u feel if u are doing things u like... no matter how tired u ar, u still feel very happy... hehe...
Then, last wed went out with bff... it was VERY FUN!! well for me la... but actually not really la... cos i keep complaining abt my parents. well... i guess i need to try to understand my parents and try to do things my way too... its the magic word again... BALANCE!
well... the pics ar up on my facebook account... so just go there and see lor... hehe...
Thats all i will say now... will blog when i have things to say...

finally movie time...

2009-08-31T20:46:00.001+08:00

Finally today i got to watch movie after so long...
i watched The Proposal with my dear JC friend Gai3(its just the 2 of us from our grp.. cos the other 1 is in aus and another one is working..)... haha... the movie is funny... really!!! And the catching up was even more fun...
Anyway... She bought stuff to prepare for her AUS study trip... Haiz... You noe... its just sad to think abt tt...
Anyway the journey home is like omg... cos i have to go city hall to change from red line (from Bishan) to green line (to Aljunied). I have to wait for abt 10 trains before i get to SQUEEZE myself in to the train... haiz...
So now i am safe at home(lol) and thinking of wat to do.... Cos i need to start studying... but my friends are asking me out... if i agree to all of them, i will be going out this whole week except fri... STUDY!!! (lol)

Finally I m Blogging...

2009-08-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today is the end of my semester exam. YAY!!!! so the semester test was ok... and its time to relax, for others but not for me. i still have got an A lvl to deal with... haiz... but i will still have to find time to meet up with my friends. This is like a must for my holidays. Catching up is Fun but finding the balance is not! dun have much to say now. Will type when i think of wat to say...

2009-08-11T12:41:00.002+08:00

Study study and study..
wat a boring life...

I guess i am really bad at maintaining friendships and other relationships like with my parents. friends come and go... i guess tts what i am... i go into ppls life for a while when we first met and after we go our separate ways, i will leave. i hate this type of life. i need to make true friends, friends that will stay in touch even after we go our separate ways.. Good thing is I have 1 such friend... we went out yesterday and it was really great to be out with my old friend. Hope that this type of meeting will continue on for a very long time!!!!

i guess its very difficult to start a conversation with a friend that u lost contact for some time. the reason? i believe its tt u do not know how tt person will response to u. i\I think its the fear of rejection and uncertainty tt is stopping us from taking the first step to start a conversation with a long lost friend. I think tt as long as this barrier is removed, we should be able to communicate with our friends...
( seriously, i think i am crapping... but it sounds correct to me... anyway... watever....)

I have to admit that i crap alot but sometimes it just make sense i think... i think the key to a good conversation is the choice of topic. If a good topic is chosen, it can keep the conversation going and there will not be any weird silence tt can discourage conversation. The choice of topic is an area i need to work on. Becos i always have problem starting conversations... and maintaining them.

well, i guess tts enough of crapping for one blog entry... will be back really soon... hehe....

2009-08-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today went dance and then i realized that i brought the wrong clothes there. so in the end i din dance. just sat there and watch other's dance... haiz...

the oc test is average. i got back my maths test le... it is 1.5 marks to full marks. haiz... why am i always so near yet so far to full marks? haiz... watever...

suddenly like this song... 理想情人

穿上洋装看着手表时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了
金色的阳光洒满人行道换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好

喜欢看你走路充满自信说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份

好想知道你的100分会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准不要让我一直等

听着那时间滴答的走对街的你在点头
好似一个梦渐渐
走到我前头

dun noe why also... just love the lyrics...

so tts all for today...

tml staying in sch to study for PIPC quiz...

my A lvl prep has stopped. i need to pick it up fast...
so many to study but so little time... OMG...

2009-08-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

i guess i should make it a point to blog everyday to reflect on my actions and also note down my feelings. I think this will help me improve myself as an individual. But i can't spend too long blogging., if not i will not have time to study.

So anyway, today i cab down to school cos i was late. I felt so guilty for waking up late. The cab fare was 10 bucks, Heart ache Sia. Why did i bother to be early today? The reason is because i had CSAS practical test, and i can't afford to be late. Lucky, i managed to be on time. The practical test was relatively easy, and i think my group did well. However, i think i dressed too formally. But who cares. hehe. Then after the test went to ITAS and saw one of ZY's friend who bought a nail file so i took it and try filing my nails and ZY's nails. and some other ppl's nails. hehe... then got oc lab. It was so relaxed. I just keep trying to get the perfect Silver Mirror (its some chemical test) but i failed. was super sad lor. i tried many different combo of the chemicals but still failed haiz... then after doing the prac, we need to wait for other class to finish, so we started to fool around. I did a very stupid and hilarious act with ZY and it send majority of the class laughing, and i almost cried laughing. hehe... Shall not elaborate.

So now i need to go study and also try to fulfill my role as a class rep.

i feel that i am too passive. I should try to be more active and have better planning skills. I should also control my spending. okok... tts all le. i need to go study for my OC Quiz tml.. and i also go dance tml... haiz... tml is going to be so tiring.

Time to update...

2009-07-22T23:04:00.003+08:00

17 July

today i super unlucky start my day by dropping my ez-link card onto the MRT track. the best part was i dun even know how it dropped because one minute it's on my hand and the next minute it's on the MRT track. I was so scared and i panicked. I totally dun know wat to do. Luckliy i remember to go to the control station and get help from the MRT staff. So after much trouble, i managed to get back my ez-link card and reach school late. And best part was my friends left me a seat next to him. And the minute he see me... he started laughing and said :" how did u manage to drop ur ez-link card on the MRT track. You are so pro." Omg. Its so embarrassing. OMG!!!
So after that just u know the normal sch boring stuff... ya....

18 July

Today, I went to see my grandma who got admitted into NUH due to some illness. Then on the way there, i saw one of my sec sch friend. So we talk abt our future plan and she is going to UK to further her studies. Its only after meeting her did i realised that i haven kept in touch with my sec sch friends except my bestie. I guess it is because i din put in effort to keep in touch with them. HAIZ. Well, i Guess i can't let this happen to my Jc friends and poly friends.

20 July

On my way to school today, i saw my supervisor from my previous job. And as u know, when u see someone or something familiar, it will trigger some memory. And so, my supervisor reminds me of the time i spent with Arini and other part-timers at GECL DRS, the fun we share during lunch, playing cards and bitch abt all sorts of things. The times where Arini and i have to stay overtime to get some of the statistics done. And not to forget how we used to swear behind the back of the MANAGER when he pissed us off. And listening to music. And the daily cup(s) of Milo and biscuits. And the walk home. I guess i just miss everything we have done together. ARINI, HOW ARE U? STILL DOING FINE IN AUS? JUST WAN TO LET U KNOW THAT I AM MISSING U!!!!!
How i wish i can go back to the fun filled days with Sec sch bestie (jocelyn), ARINI, GAHYATHIRI, SASI, COUNCIL PEEPS(ALL OF U GUYS), 2S08 PPLS AND SO ON...
Well i guess if i cant go back, i should work hard to enjoy my poly life and make it another part of my precious memory.
And he din go to sch cos he injured himself the day before. Haiz. So careless of him.

22 July

I am going to organise a class chalet. I guess it is not possible to make sure the whole class stick together everytime. I guess i am hoping for the impossible. Cliques are inevitable!!! Just accept it and move on!!! I think i am a lousy leader. I need to be more organised and plan everything better. i am having new goals again. haiz. JIA YOU BA!!!!

okok... got to go study le. Fri got HAP and maths test. Haiz. and i still got A level. haiz.

JIA YOU!!! its ok to sleep less. its for the better of me. have been sleeping at 2am. hope i can last...

PERSEVERANCE AND DETERMINATION IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went to the airport to send Arini off....
Was laughing and joking till the very last min when i see her entering the gate. i was like controlling my tears... i was really sad to see my friend just leaving like this. well... i think this is just part and parcel of life. I guess it's something that i need to learn. haiz... I guess i will stop here le...

just drop by...

2009-07-09T21:03:00.002+08:00

Tml i have PIPC Quiz. Haiz.... I thinks its going to be tough. Haiz... Need to go study le...

Today... nothing much happen.. sch was just ok...
And i am still wondering if i have a crush on him or i just think that he is different from the other boys in class?

Bad news!!!! I still haven start studying for my A levels. Like that how?????? I only got like less than 4months to go... omg.... Like that how!!!!!

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Ok.... Sorry... i am just trying to emphasis the fact that i should be as hardworking as him. I mean he is going ahead of the lecturer. He is working to earn his OWN pocket money. And he is still going to take up more courses. haiz... Ooo... and he is never late for lessons... haiz...
Maybe its because he is so great thats why i am always looking up to him(admire him). Haiz....

I Should go study le... haiz...
I am so imperfect compared to so many ppl... haiz...
Ok... got to go... BB...

SOOOOO Blur....

2009-07-08T22:31:00.003+08:00

I was like so blur today....
this is what happen...
today after school i went to sign up for the YOG volunteer. Then i left my 'bag' of books on the table then go talk to my friends. Then after that me and my friends went to the bus-stop and wait for our buses. Then just before i board the bus, i realised that i left my books in school. Then i was telling my friends that i am so dead cos most of my notes are in the books.
So my friend told me to trying calling WZ to see if he's still in school. Luckily, he is still in school so i ask him to help me bring the books home and return me tml. I think that i would have gone back to take it if i was not rushing for dance.
And talking about dance, i missed dance last week due to my flu and cough. today i went dance and i saw my dance pal who has gone for a vacation 5 weeks ago. I am so happy to see her and we talked about a lot of things. She is going uni and i feel happy for her. So we went home together after 5 weeks and got our favourite bubble tea ' champagne grape red tea'. After buying the bubble tea, we took the train and we chatted a lot. And i was telling her what a culture shock i got in poly. hehe... shall not elaborate it . hehe... so now i am at home, preparing to study... haiz... study!!!

Anyway, Arini is going to aus on fri... I AM SO GOING TO MISS HER. SHE IS GOING TO BE SO FAR!!!!! BUT WE WILL STILL KEEP IN TOUCH!!! I PROMISE!!!!
So on friday i am going to the airport to see her off. Hope i won't cry... I will miss all the time we spent in JC and GECL!!! FRIENDS FOREVER!!!! I wish you all the best in Aus!!!

劉若英後來 LYRICS

2009-07-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

桅子花白花瓣落在我藍色百褶裙上
「愛你」你輕聲說
我低下頭聞見一陣芬芳
那個永恆的夜晚十七歲仲夏你吻我的那個夜晚
讓我往後的時光每當有感嘆
總想起當天的星光

那時候的愛情為什麼就能那樣簡單
而又是為什麼人年少時
一定要讓深愛的人受傷
在這相似的深夜裡你是否一樣也在靜靜追悔感傷
如果當時我們能不那麼倔強
現在也不那麼遺憾

你都如何回憶我帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來有沒有人能讓你不寂寞

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

你都如何回憶我帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來有沒有人能讓你不寂寞

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

永遠不會再重來
有一個男孩愛著那個女孩

I like this song.. dun noe why... just love it...

Wat Am i Doing...

2009-07-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

I realise that my past entries have got nothing regarding my poly life. I think I haven been paying attention to what is happening around me. I have been too engross with trying to figure out how to obtain a balance in my family life. What are my roles in the family? how to improve my relationship with my parents? How to organised my life as in finding a balance between playing and studying. How to reduce the amount of time I spent quarreling with my parents.
As a result I think I totally ignored my friends. I really dun noe what I am doing. My life seems so boring and I can just forget what happen yesterday. Seriously, what is happening to me! I just lost interest to my life. WTH!
I think i am just too simple minded. I keep thinking that i understand my friends, but somehow i will discover that i actually dun understand them at all. Maybe its just because i didn't bother to really go understand them.
Its my fault that my life is so messed up. Its time i tidy it up.
Its time i put in effort to maintain my friendships.
I always have crushes on guys and i am not too sure if i am serious in any of them. So i think i will just left it at that.
O well, but its a fact that i want a taste in BGR afterall I am 19 oready and i have got zero boyfriends. Haiz.
Ok. I will stop here now, but i promise that i will update regularly. I hope i dun break this promise.

Maybe i shall come up with some general goals for this year.
1) To improve my relationship with my parents.
2) To obtain more freedom.
3) To do well for my A lvls (straight Bs at least).
4) To get a GPA of more than 3.5.
5) To improve my friendships with BFF, JC friends and OF COURSE my new founded POLY friends.
6) To slim down alot!!!!

So thats all for now... BB.............................

SICK!!!

2009-07-03T21:52:00.002+08:00

Omg... i am sick... with cough and flu... hoping to recover soon... haiz...

Everyone is going their separate ways, when will we meet again. Its easy when we are in the same country, but what happens when we are in different country?

My Birthday!

2009-06-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my birthday!!!

Received many wishes from many friends!!!

Thanks for all the wonderful wishes.. I feel super happy tt so many of u remembered my bday...
And i even got a long distance birthday wish. Omg... i was really happy. If u r my close friends, you will know why. It A long Distance Wish From.... hehe....

Life becomes Great thanks to all of u!!!

Finally I m Blogging...

2009-06-09T21:22:00.002+08:00

Now its holiday!!!! yesterday went out with Jocelyn to window shop and have lunch... We wanted to watch Dance, Subaru. But it was not shown in TM. So we just eat and chat. We went to eat Long John. Then walk the whole TM, And T1. It was fun just to meet up with friends. I love meeting friends and catching up with them... Haha, today i meet Arini to eat lunch cos her work place is near my house. So we ate and chat alot.

Everyone have their problems and sometimes as a friend the only thing that you can do is probably just be a listening ear. It can actually make your friend feel so much better even if you didn't say anything. Friends are very precious. LIFE BECAME GREAT BECAUSE THERE ARE FRIENDS AROUND TO SUPPORT YOU DURING THE HARD TIMES and the 'soft times' hehe... just kidding. Wat i meant was friends will always stand by you during the bad times and the good times.

No one should be alone. Everyone will have friends that cared for them even if they rarely meet up.
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE GIVEN ME SUPPORT WHEN I AM DOWN.
AND I WILL ALWAYS MISS THE TIME WHEN WE FOOL AROUND.
I will keep having new friends but i will not forget my old friends.

comp crash.

2009-05-19T18:44:00.003+08:00

my computer crash le... sob.. i am now using my office comp to type this post.. dun tell anybody... hehe...
i am going to quit like next week... sob... cos i can't cope with work and study together...
its a good thing i am quitting cos the job really sucks... pity the part timers... hehe... esp the one taking over me. He got a hell lot of things to do la..
the manager can't make it one lor... good thing i am quitting...

Side note: life is complicated. Some times its difficult to determine who is the nice guy and who is the bad guy. It's mostly personal preference i think.

Plus, i am starting to hate making choices because i really hate the feeling you get if you happen to make the wrong choice. The feeling sucks la.

The ironic thing is tt life is full of choices.. wat the hell... haiz...

So long...

2009-05-07T22:45:00.002+08:00

It has been like 1 week since my last post. Was kind of ban from using my PC, for dunno wat reason.
actually i got nothing much to say. Just tt school is getting tough. Cliques are forming. I need to find out who i really am.
Lastly, I need to study for A levels... Anyone wan to give me tuition? Or just teach me how to prepare? haha... i need all the help i can get. My A lvl is in like 6 mths time!!!

IF THERE'RE SEASONS

2009-04-29T00:03:00.004+08:00

Today, i went to watch the musical if there're seasons at night.
I feel that its a very wonderful performance. I love the storyline, the songs they sing, the dances they dance, the backdrop and basically everything about the musical. It was simply wonderful.
Except that i was interrupted by a few MSG that piss me off, but i decided to just enjoy my musical. haha.

The MSG was all about school stuff. I was trying to do something to help, but apparently I feel that I didn't do a good job. Was i too busybody? Did I cross the line between what a class rep should do or not? I have no idea. How can I be a Better class rep? Well maybe I should just keep to myself. Or maybe I can ask the teacher to change another class rep because I do not have the confidence that i can do a good job. Maybe I should just trust that I am doing the right thing? I am like super confused and demoralized.

Side Note: sch work is increasing. SOB... SOB...

Another Note: I dun wan to grow up and be like my dad.

Back to Reality....

2009-04-27T21:54:00.003+08:00

The Reality....
People my age are going into Unis. Be it overseas or local. And i am at poly. What a joke, before today i was so happy to be in poly. But after i know that my BFF got into Ntu and taking a course that i know that she dun mind taking, reality hits me really hard. Its so hard that i can feel my heart bleeding.

I am like 100000% happy that my BFF got this outcome. But what hurts is the fact that i am in
poly. The fact that after 3 years, she will be a degree holder, But i am just a pathetic Diploma holder.

The Reality Hurts Like Hell And I Have to Live in this Hell UNTIL I achieve what I want.
I have to find Power in Hell to Survive So that in the future, I will be able to survive in any condition.

I don't know why but the news of my BFF can bring me back to reality and not the news of my other friends. Maybe its cos I still haven't got much news from my other friends.

I hereby sincerely congrats all my friends that got accepted to Uni and hope that others get the news soon.

As for me, I am Starting my life in hell.
Ps. its not tt poly is not good... its just tt longer path tt i have to go thru tt is like hell.

A quote:" what doesn't kill you will ONLY make you stronger." I WILL BECOME STRONGER.
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME....

2009-04-24T23:31:00.004+08:00

Today, my water bottle died. Its not a big deal, but i just feel like mentioning it. haha.

One week of school has ended. This week we only had lectures, there was no tutorial and lab sessions. I guess the lessons that i look forward most is the lab sessions. However, i dun think they are going to start soon. Haiz.

oh... btw... i manage to catch up with lots of people this few weeks. Its not face to face but through MSN. I really hope tt we can all meet up like super soon. Can someone organize an outing really soon, so tt all of us can catch up. I really should keep in contact with friends. Thats why we make friends. Friends are for us to keep in our HEARTS, not somewhere in the contact list and dun keep contact.

Today in school i learn something, dun judge a book by its cover, and dun form first impressions because they can be very wrong. The video below was shown by my teacher. Not because of the song... but because of the before and after of the judge and audience. See if u know wat i mean... haha..

Susan Boyle-Britains got talent

Tts all for now...

lots to say...

2009-04-20T11:22:00.005+08:00

This post is going to be very long....

I will start with last sat, 18/4. I went to watch NP's dance performance with Jocey. It was a nice performance on the whole. The stage effect was good,the music was awesome and the costume was beautiful. It has been quite some time since I last saw a chinese dance performance. The last time I watch a dance performance was 3 years ago in kallang theatre. Well not actually watch la. I was part of the performing cast lor. haha.
Actually tt day when i went to Victoria Theatre, i kind of miss the stage. After all, I used to perform there with my dance school. I used to dance anyhow. But now..... i am missing the stage.
I think i am starting to like or love dancing. Maybe my parents were right, i shouldn't have quit dance.
However, if i dun quit dance, i will not be watching a performance and realise that i actually miss dancing on stage.

LIFE... ITS ALWAYS SO COMPLICATED AND CONFUSING... NEED TO FIND BALANCE...

On mon, 13/4, its my first day of TP orientation. It was.... Boring. Because its a workshop.

On tue, 14/4, it was fun. My class win all the games. There were cheeering. Everyone was high.

On Wed, 15/4, i went to TP at 2 plus. then meet up with my care person and after dinner, we start playing games and we played till 5. We didnot sleep at all that night. Its like record breaking for me lor. Cos i have never ever stayed up the whole night... haha...

So ya... tts abt it... haha...

2009-04-18T00:13:00.002+08:00

LEO....
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY.....
ONCE A PR HEAD... ALWAYS A PR HEAD...
I STILL REMEMBER U HOR...
YOU HAVE BEEN A VERY CARING HEAD AND A VERY WONDERFUL FRIEND...
SO I MENTION U IN MY BLOG...
HEHE...

we are not like super close but u did contribute a huge part to my memories in SR Student Council. After all u were the one in charge of the PR committee. It was really nice to work with you because you will always joke and help me out whenever i am in difficulty.
hope tt u stay healthy and keep the smile on ur face always. ALL THE BEST!!!

P.S. i am not sure if u will read this post but its here becos i just wan to thank u... hehe...

Random...

2009-04-10T14:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, when i sign in to my msn, i received some offline messages. So when i see tt person online, i replied to his msn. Who noes, he was away. Then today when i sign in again, i received his replied to my msn when i am offline. I wonder wat this type of situation is called. The best part of all was.... i have been wanting to chat with him. Hehe...

Next week is my orientation. The week after tt, school is going to start. I am going to poly. Hate the fact that i might be junior to my sec sch classmates. But love the fact tt i am studying biotech. Thought its not biomed, but biotect also not too bad. Also love the fact tt i will be meeting new friends...

I am hoping and praying hard tt i will be able to switch to biomed after my first year.

May the Force be with me.......

For all bio students.....

2009-04-03T12:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I look at my parents i/c and i saw that they both have blood type o+. However, my blood type is A+. So the question here is, "how is this possible?" From what i learn, i know this is not possible. So are there any theories? Because i know for sure, i am their kid. SERIOUSLY...

2009-04-03T11:53:00.004+08:00

JOCELYN,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U R MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER....
WISH U A SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY....
ENJOY LIFE AND KEEP IN TOUCH.........
LOVE U LOTS AND LOTS....
MISS U LOTS TOO...

SAT!!!!

2009-03-21T14:32:00.003+08:00

Today is sat.
The past few days passed with a blink of an eye, cant believe it is weekend again. Staying at home can sometimes stress me up when i have to handle my parents. Sometimes i just dun understand how they think. Well, sometimes its my own problem. Oh... Watever la... I think i am just too fickle minded. From now on, i will have to make up my mind, and do my best for watever decisions tt i made and dun ever regret.

Come on. Life is Short, there's no time to regret man... ya... so guess my plan now is just to wait for results from the places tt i applied... worst come to worst, i will survive as a teacher. how unexpected. I cant imagine me as a teacher. I think the kids will all cry when they see my face. haha.

thats all for now.. hehe..

2009-03-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I went to NUS with Vani Sis. After which, we went to eat lunch. Vani Sis ate yong tao fu, and i ate curry chicken noodles. After which we went to the Supreme Court open house which is like super fun and its a once in a life time experience. I was really glad that i went for the open house. The pics will be put on my facebook account. hehe.

Today went back to work, was introduced to a new causal stuff.
The lunch session was really fun today. Reason? Some of us, the causal stuffs sat in the pantry and ... bitched. haha. Basically most of the time we were laughing our heads off at funny jokes and i badmouthed about the manager.(I know its wrong but i can't help it. hehe. hope none of the perm stuff hear me. hehe)So all in all today's work was fun. hehe.

At home had some conflict with my dad. Its nothing special since we do that practically everyday.
But most of the time he will be the one talking or rather shouting(cos he has got loud voice) and i will normally be deaf. hehe. its now an automatic reaction when my dad opens his mouth. So most of the time, And it just most of the time i will not listen to him. some times i will still listen. Most of the times he will be repeating the same old nagging and its very, super irritating lor.
So i guess u can't blame me for not listening to him.

Ok. Guess i will stop here.

I solemnly and sincerely declare and affirm that the evidence that i shall give in this court shall be the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. (hehe. this is the oath that a witness takes before sharing his testimony with the court. I thought it was kind of cool so i am writing it in my blog. hehe)

2009-03-13T23:11:00.004+08:00

Today is Friday the 13.
I had lots of fun working especially when both Arini and I try to imitate the manager.
I don't really like the manager because he smokes and his attitude is like Shit.
It was my third week at work and i have to talk to the manager already, It was really scary and especially when the manager is sitting diagonally behind me.
But the imitating was really fun. Wahaha.

Now about my future.
I am still at this topic. Its not that i don't want to finish this topic and put it behind me, its just that i cant make up my mind for the fear of making the wrong choice.
Due to my financial concern, going overseas is now 100% out of the story, out of the way, what so ever. Well, i am not the only person with financial concerns, however, my parents do not want to take loan. Therefore, overseas is a definite NO.

So now i can only wait for the reply for poly and apply as a private candidate to retake my A levels.
Hope that everything will be fine.

blank

2009-03-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

i am now confused...
my mind is blank...
i dunno wat to do...
wat to do now...
my parents are thinking of poly for me...
for god's sake... if i wan to go poly... then wat for go JC in the first place...
then i really dunno wat to do now la....
i feel like going to aus to start afresh...
but my parents are saying tt they cant afford to send me overseas...
wat am i to do now..
my results ar not too bad tt i can retake in school...
but my parents insisted tt i retake in sch... n they really INSISTED...
i tell them i can try retaking as a private candidate...
n i think tis is the best i can compromised...
but they also dun wan...
wat the hell...
WAT THE HELL...
OH MY GOD...

i might just stay at home n rot since we cant reach a conclusion tt pleases everyone!!!!!!
i tried talking to friends...
but i m still confused...

seriously... watever... i dunno la...

Wat Now?

2009-03-06T20:26:00.003+08:00

2day...
got my A lvl result...
best grade C...
worse grade E...
not the ideally grades..
now i cant go local uni...
overseas will be like super ex..
really m confused...
dunno wat to do....
haiz...
i m going to keep thinking... haiz...

6mar minus 1 day... :(

2009-03-05T15:25:00.003+08:00

today...
i feel the fear...
the fear of stepping into school...
the fear of receiving tt piece of paper from the form teacher...
the fear of seeing wats written on the paper...
the fear of tears flowing... not tears of joy but tears of sadness...
the fear of wat to do in the future...
the fear of failure...
the fear of disappointing faces of teachers...
the fear of falling below expectations..
the fear of the fear for the above...

AT THE SAME TIME..
i feel the hope...
the hope of going up the stage...
the hope of bring pride to myself....
the hope of tears of joy...
the hope of all passes..
the hope of all distinctions..

Oh.... watever... everything will be revealed tml...
i dun wan to tink abt it now...

night...

2009-03-04T22:03:00.003+08:00

its night time now...
just finish dance...
tired...
then my dear BFF, Jocelyn so poor thing...
got pissed by customer...
but cant complain...
onli can tell her fren... haiz...
lucky my job no need to face customer... hehe... :P
hope to see her soon again...
hehe...
most probably meetin next wed...
and it will be after 6mar... haiz... omg....
hate tis date...

going to slp now... dun wan to think abt it le...

During work... :)

2009-03-04T15:45:00.002+08:00

haha...
i m now at work...
haha... slacking lor...
if not i wont be posting tis blog... hehe...

just now gai3 came to Geylang lib... haha...
then at Aljunied MRT station...
her shoe spoilt... haha....
super funny.. haha...
then Arini lend gai3 her shoes...
i be e messenger n send e shoe 2 gai3...
then brought Gai3 to buy new slippers n bubble tea...
then i brought her to the office..
then it was bitching time for 3 girls...
but the topic is mostly abt e release of e A lvl results...
n also driving test... haiz...
A lvls... 2 days n counting...
omg... haiz...
then gai3 left...
n so here i m... working...

yesterday...
i had dinner outside wif Arini..
cos both my parents haf their own plans...
haha... so rare.. hehe...
so we went sing post to eat KFC...
cant remember when was e last time i ate tt.. haiz...
then we go jalan jalan...
then she bought a t-shirt...
n i bought a belt... hehe...
then i oso bought a maths book for my fren tt i m tutioning... hehe...
then go hm... hehe...

COUNTING DOWN TO A LVL...
HATE IT....
DUNNO WAT TO EXPECT...
HOPING FOR THE BEST... HAHA....

pissed...

2009-03-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

2day need to help my dad do something...
he actually aske me to do it quite some time before...
but i dunno how to do... n i told him...
so i din do it until today...
then today... he just say "do it for me"...
without teaching me...
so i just anyhow do for him...
then after i pass it to him...
he started to say i never do this...
never do tt...
then he started scolding me...
say wat i keep watching tv...
n many stuff...
dun even bother to remember...

seriously...
if he had given me a format to follow or something like tt to start with..
then the whole problem would not have occurred la....

seriously
i dun think its my fault tis time...
i mean...
ppl always say tt e kids r always wrong...
n e parents r always rite...
i sooooo wan to think differently...
its not like i m always rite...
but i ll admit my mistake but HE always think he's rite...
n he always shout at me...
over n over again... abt e same things...
so i guess u cant blame me for not wanting to listen to him...
he may be rite some times...
but everytime he opens his mouth...
i just dun wan to listen to him...
maybe tts some basic communication problem between us...
haiz...

weekends

2009-03-01T09:46:00.001+08:00

today is SUNDAY....
after i started my work... e weekend seems to be very precious...
hehe...
yesterday went out wif my parents...
it was terrible...
cos we were unable to agree on certain things...
n ya... i dun wan to recall it... so tts all i m going to say abt yesterday...

i haf worked of a week now...
its actually quite fun...
since i m sitting next Arini...
it makes work so much more fun... haha...
we will joke n haf fun together... hehe...

my mood for e coming week should be bad....
n havin moodswings...
n stuff...
but it should be understood...
since i m goin to get my A lvl results on 6 mar...
dunno wats goin to happen on tt day....
really hope tt day wont come...
so tt i wont feel so uneasy....

but still...
hoping tt e day wont come is just trying to escape from reality...
facin e reality may be difficult... but it helps u to proceed on... n get on wif life...
escaping will not do u any good...
so just face it... good or bad....
it will all pass sonner or later...
jia you to me!!!!!!

FIRST DAY of WORK...

2009-02-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

2day is my first day of work....
its at Geylang East lib.. tts like SUPER near my hse... hehe... love it... cos i can wake up at 8.30am n still can reach at 9am sharp for work...
haha....
2day is kind of stress... cos got a lot of things to remember... cos e other guy... fahmi... stop working 2day... n i m taking over him...
then fahmi need me to help him plug in e plug 4 his laptop.... then e plug 2 ARINI's comp came off... then the lotus notes cant work... then she keep "Haunting" me.... omg... haha.... but i think its not my fault.... so ya... hehe.... dun care her...
then just keep doin e things i m suppose 2 do.... n finally its 6pm... time to go home... so happy... haha....

talk abt e last weekend, on sat... went shopping wif my mother n cousin... then bought stuffs.... n 3 pairs of jeans... haha.... love those jeans... hehe....

then on sun... finally went out with jocelyn.... we went suntec.... then just window shop.... n window shop... then eat subway... then really veri sick n tired of window shopping.... so we went to take pics... we took many many photos.... n it was SUPPER FUN... haha... then at night i made presents 4 Arini's sisters... cos i din go to their birthday party.... haha...

hope tml work would be better...
goin to slp le... hehe....

happy day?

2009-02-18T21:44:00.002+08:00

2day ...
got a call to say tt i got a job...
tts like super near my hse...
n i got 2 thk ARINI a zillion...
cos she got me e interview...
hehe...
really happy... haha...
then 2day oso wen dance...
really hope i can do well...
but its really difficult... hehe...
haf 2 try very hard...
tts all... going 2 rest now...
hehe

Happy Vday...

2009-02-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

2day... went for NTU talk...
its not e ideal way 2 spend my Vday...
but i got 2 meet up wif Gahyathiri, Arini n Lijie...
so.... its not tt bad lor...
we get 2 eat lunch 2gether....
n window shop....
n we crap alot...
like just crap n crap.... non stop....
i din get to meet jocelyn...
but we ll find 1 day 2 meet... hehe...
kind of miss my friends...
really hope we all can meet up...
hehe... :(

new blog... some thoughts :)

2009-02-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

i accidentally deleted e blog tt i started 2 years ago...
but it was left on its own after a few entries...
so i guess i might as well start a new 1...

i m now waitin 4 my 'A" lvl results...
n just slacking...
like slack slack kind of slack...

it's a pity tt i din update my blog n fill it wif my memories from my sec sch years s well s my jc years...
they r definitely memories tt i ll always treasure...
n i oso wan 2 thank all my frens tt had contributed to tis memories....

my all time best fren for 5 years plus...
Jocelyn lee...
miss all e fun we had...
i m REALLY glad we r still in contact wif each other...
not to forget my sec sch class mates...
they r really nice ppl...

my multi racial frens...
Gahyathiri, Arini, Sasi tt i ll always remember...
esp e wonderful moments we spent in JC...
in class...
in e group tution...
n just all e time when we r together...
e 2S08 family really rocks n i really felt tt i m 1 of e family member...

e presence of each n every one in student council had made my journey wonderful...
REALLY... its e truth...
all e events tt we haf to plan n organise...
all the fun we had dancing e banana dance...
n all e fun we had in e orientation...
not to forget the triplets...
Vanessa, Alexandria n me...
love my committee...
esp e head n deputy head...

e crushes tt i had on tt few guys...
except 4 1...
e rest r history oready...
my frens...
u noe...
i noe...
can oready...
hehe...
e guy...
dun need to noe abt it.. haha... :)
so keep it a secret...
kkz... :)

oso... all the frens tt i noe from sch...
i ll oso remember u all...

e teachers r not forgotten... e things tt u guys taught me...
ll be remembered always...
e kindness u guys showered on me ll be deeply appreciated...

lastly... i just hope n pray tt my 'A' lvl results ll not be too bad...
good luck 2 myself n all my frens tt r waitin 4 e 'A' lvl results...

Small Red Dot

About relationship

BLA BLA BLA

I am SO PISSED!!!

HI!!!

SAD

WOW!!!!

OMG

... challenge...

Result!!

study break!!!

haiz!!!!

updates!!!

About FRIDAY!!!

late at night.

finally back to blog.

HIHI

SORRY!!!!

Lots to Update!!!!!

first trial of pool!!!!

Depressed!!!

HAIZ....

fun!!!

OUT WITH BBF!!!

WELCOME BACK......

.....

just another post...

Results....

blogging again...

finally movie time...

Finally I m Blogging...

Time to update...

just drop by...

SOOOOO Blur....

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Wat Am i Doing...

SICK!!!

My Birthday!

Finally I m Blogging...

comp crash.

So long...

IF THERE'RE SEASONS

Back to Reality....

lots to say...

Random...

For all bio students.....

SAT!!!!

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Wat Now?

6mar minus 1 day... :(

night...

During work... :)

pissed...

weekends

FIRST DAY of WORK...

happy day?

Happy Vday...

new blog... some thoughts :)

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